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Why are you so eager to leave me? Where are you trying to go?

... I don't know.

Just how far do you think you'll get when you don't even know where you're going?

The world is as vast as an ocean, and we are as insignificant as two specks in that infinite blue. And we've tried everything we could to find even a single meaning in existence.

But we couldn't. Because nothing has any meaning and everything is superfluous.

Are you about to tell me that you've found meaning in those people?

... No.

They are simply... those who move forward.

Wading blindly through the unknowable dark, they burn everything they are on bygone memories, on others who are but passing bookmarks in their lives, on meaning that will soon change... down to the last inch of their wicks.

None of them are heroes who can change the world. They are simply... beings who were thrown into this world, lost and confused... just like I am.

So... I don't understand them. I never managed to.

I still don't understand why they hang onto those unfulfilling values that only project illusions of meaning.

... And you still want to go back outside with them?

Meursault turns his gaze toward us, his eyes still full of uncertainty and doubt, and replies.

... I do.

Hahahaha!

Have you forgotten that I'm a Giant? Ah, who am I kidding? You don't forget. You were probably just swept up in the moment.

... You're lying to yourself, ma puce.

You won't find understanding from those people. They'll just gaze and gaze at you - and you'll never understand them.

Don't you understand? Hell is those people - the Hell of nails that pin you down!

.......